Just Thoutghts

It scares me when I get close to people, because either I'll continue to grow closer to them or I'll stop and we'll become strangers. Either way it'll hurt (sooner or later).

I was a happy person once. Notorious to an extend that my teachers would make me sit alone and/or on their desk. Those things never worked, because I was one of the unstoppables. From taking an exam for a friend who feared failing the course for the third time to shutting the power supply of the whole campus while we had a VIP guest for an event. Was always caught but managed to crawl out of the claws with this little notorious brain of mine. And then I got tried of being all that. 

I got tired of always being happy and the kind of a girl who solved most of her problems with quick thinking and cunning reactions. I got tired of how everything I did or said was taken for a cheap practical joke. I got tired of me.

And the friends that you allow to get yourself close to, are the ones who hurt you and leave you without an explanation or even an apology. That's when you discover their true colors and get to know who they are.