Backfires

I always write about you. I don’t have 2 AM thoughts, instead I have all day thoughts about you and I know that seems obsessive and I hate that. But you don’t understand, you won’t understand, that when I say I can not kiss anybody else it is because you have taken all of me and absolutely crushed me, you have broken me in every single way possible and it makes me ache that it does not bother nor affect you in any way. I hate you so much but I love you and it only backfires on me because I don’t cross your mind. You simply do not care. I wish it were that easy for me to move on to forget you to not care.